Tuesday, January 5, 2010

tomorrow i get to see the shrink... fun shit...

i'm finally gonna do it, but it's because i'm 99.9999% sure I'm 1000% ADHD and I'm certain I've had it my WHOLE life!

So my friend Am gets on FB a month or so ago and tells us she's going on ritillan (sp?) for adult adhd... i was floored! she sees a naturalpathic dr. she's all hippified... like me... ritialln??? for a childhood thing that i seriously doubted 98% of the kids diagnosed with it had... they needed to eat better food and get their asses outside playing is what they needed not some stupid drug.

anyway... sooooo i decide it was high time I went and researched this rediculous condition when I read Am's post. What did I find you ask? I found a photo of me with my tail between my legs and me eating every uneducated word out of my mouth on the subject... that's what i found.

Everything I read that day was as if the authors were talking about me. my whole life from when I was a child till that very moment!

i did more research. i talked to my friend Am about it. i bought the book: You Mean I'm Not Lazy, Stupid or Crazy? and started highlighting... then stopped cause the entire book would be highlighted and then what's the point.

so i finally made the apt to get the referall to go see the head shrink... seriously with the billion step process! give me a break!

she looked skeptical but referred me anyway. had to reschedule first apt due to many things, but mainly a tummy ache and long distance drive in bad weather.

here i am the eve of and i'm writing in my "hardly ever wrote in" journal about the main points of why i know i'm adhd.

i want drugs. i'm ready to be a functioning adult and not this crazy, lazy and stupid person.

2 comments:

  1. whats sites did you check out, i believe many young kids are mis-diagnosed AND there are therpies with natural remedies. My nutritionist help many a child with ADD and adult too with some vitamins and herbs. i need to re-educate on the topic though.

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  2. therApies...therpies, haha that my new creature for today, like harpies only they live in water. LOL@myself

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