so... i'm still lovin my drugs... i am. it's helping in so many ways but one... does not motivate me to get homework done.. lol! come on, that's the main reason i'm takin this shit... to help me with school lol!
no... motivation is all on me... i know this.
other than that all is fine in the world of Ritalin LA...
ok if there are any guys reading this dont read this part...
i started a whole like... 5-6 days early and it's pretty heavy, not painful but i wonder if that's a bad thing or just my body freaking out about being on meds? i barely take tylenol unless my headache won't go away on it's own... so jumping from almost zero meds of any kind to Ritalin... idk...
This part is ok guys lol
calm and quiet is still how i would describe this. my Starbucks fixation is gone. Sometimes I want one cause it tastes good but it's not a OMG I NEED IT NOW thing. I can say no.
I went to a jewelry party at my sis's house yesterday and normally I would walk out of there with a ton of stuff but not this time... i bought 1 thing. I was able to tell myself no. some alien force isn't in control of my brain anymore, i am. that's a nice feeling. being able to tell myself no is a good feeling! being in control is a good thing.
pretty much just repeat what's been said the last few days. so far so good on the meds.
part 2.
why can't i get motivated for school? i think it's burn out. i think i'm finally at a point where i am just DONE but the problem is... i'm not done. i need to force myself to do this stuff and i thought the meds was supposed to help with that lol.. not so much it seems. i'm kinda bummed, but should it really be that easy? take this pill and poof all my problems are solved? no. but it would have been nice lol!
sigh.
my moods are good and level... no major pms symptoms this month either, which is nice.
ok that's all i got.
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