yes but not in the way the song implies.. i'm assuming.. idk.
i'm irritated that i have to journal tonight. i don't wanna do it. i don't wanna do anything. nothing. can't i just have a few weeks of blissful relaxation? wait.. who is this talking? i never want that! i always neeeeeed a milliong things to do. now that i'm on meds i can't handle it all. how effing messed up is that.
it gives me calm and quiet and control...mostly.
takes away motivation...or drive... or something... idk. idk. idk. idk. idk.
i'm not in a happy place.
i'm super stressed about school. i'm super behind and yet i can't work up the motivation to just fucking do it!
i'm thinking of skipping a dose tomorrow to see what happens.
good thing i have a therapy session tomorrow.
that's all i wanna write. i'm going to bed.
That sucks. It should be helping you, not hurting you. Bummer. You will get there. It's still working its way into your system.
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